my english

To be honest, I don’t like English at all. But why don’t I like English? Am I born not good at English?
My first time to touch the English formally was in junior school grade 1. I thought English was very interesting at the beginning, and my English was very good. But later I found I need to recite many English vocabularies to keep the high marks. I was so lazy that I didn’t want to recite so many vocabularies. As the result, my English become worse and worse.
When reached the senior school, all my subjects were very good expect the English. It made me hate the English subject, so I spent less time on English and my English become worse and worse. When I realized that English was very important and try to work hard to improve my English, I began to recite many vocabularies every day, but the effect was not obvious. What was the worse, I could not suffered the boring of reciting vocabularies any more. When I wanted to work hard again, some days late I gave up again, it became a bad circle. So my English never improved.
When I came to Singapore, English became more important, every subject was in English here.
Now, I realize English is the wound of my study, and I don’t want the wound become worse. I want to learn English well, though I don’t know how many times I have said this before. I don’t dream that my English become very good, I just don’t want the wound become worse.