Time and hope Lyn

Do you want your time to be faster or slower?

I used to want my time to be faster so I could skip the boring and miserable parts of my life, and the happy time would jump directly in front of me. But these years I wanted it to be slower, but this is apparently impossible. In fact, no matter what I have wished and hoped or what I am wishing and hoping, time is time; it won’t have any change for any reason.

Perhaps the waiting process is the best ever thing.

Just like going back to China. The two months before coming back is a wonderful time period for me because returning to my hometown is like a wish but will be realized in two months time. While if there are more than two months ahead, usually I will not allow homesick come to my mind as it seems to be too long and too far away from me – it is too torturous!

The Chinese Writer Qian Zhongshu had a famous saying about memory and hope, “there are only two types of people: such as a bunch of grapes, one will eat the best grapes first; another puts the most delicious until the last to eat. It seems the first kind of people are happier because every dop they eat is the best left while the second type should not be as the grapes are the worst leftovers. But the fact is that the second kind of people are happier, because the first only have memories and the second still have hope.”

I think I am the second type of people. My life is sustained by hopes and my hopes should be easy-reached. If I had any dreams, they must have been divided into many small pieces, small hopes and wishes. But during the process, maybe I have forgotten what my dreams were.

Time can change many things, but I hope time will not change my dreams, my hopes and my fantasies.